I know I can get a little absent minded I know you get frustrated with me sometimes I know I maynot not know what you mean sometimes I know I may get a little silly sometimes but the fact you still love me for me makes me feel so special when You laugh at me and say it's alright when you let the little things slide makes me love you more when I forget you gently remind me that it's okay to be me you stuck with me this far you helped me understand what was before was nothing that the world is ours to take and to live in here with you is nowhere else I'd rather be you make me feel like a habit that your addicted to know I can get a little absent minded I know you get frustrated with me sometimes I know I maynot not know what you mean sometimes I know I may get a little silly sometimes but the fact you still love me for me makes me feel so special (to J.J.H)

I relise at times my poems are distressing it's after all poetry rarely do I post or put up good poetry but here's one .. BUTTERFLY KISSES
BEAUTIFUL IS WHAT YOU MAKE ME FEEL
UNDENIABLE LOVE THIS I'M FEELING
THE WAY YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I'M SOMEONE
THE WAY YOU KISS MAKES ME TASTE THE STARS
EVERY SWEET WORD YOU SAY EMBRACES ME
RAIN AND THUNDER STORMS MAKE ME THINK OF YOU
FOR THEY REMIND ME OF YOUR STRENTGH
LOVING YOU FEELS SO WONDERFUL AND FOR THE MOMENT RIGHT
YOUR THE MAN WHO GAVE ME A REASON TO TRUST ONE AGAIN

KISSES LIKE BUTTERFLYS DANCE IN MYHEART EVERYTIME,
I'AM WITH YOU AND TALKING THERE WITH YOU
SOMETHING FEELS SO RIGHT WITH YOU
SOMETHING SO BEAUTIFUL AS THIS BUTTERFLYS KISS
EVEN NOW i CAN'T FEEL WARY OF YOU
SO i'LL JUST ACCEPT THIS AS I'AM

This is what I have to do when you make me feel so much sadness Ignore the hurt I feel inside when I think how you'll feel so bad. ignore your empty lies there not convincing. Ignore the pain in my heart when I think I've got to let you go. Look away when I see me crying for someone like you ignore the shame I feel in me for even trusting you. numb and broken because you were never there. Ignore this pain in my heart when I think you never cared. break you untill I go away and I have, cutting stunning are your lies and excuses they're so vain. burn myself by my own flame then hurt by yours. You don't matter right now why should I care about you, your not a man to me your nothing but a lie in itself. ***not done******* poem 2 of 8/8/04 " I CAN DO THIS ALONE WITHOUT YOU " we don't need you we can be do better without you. I can do this alone without you you don't have time for me I don't have time for you I can do this alone without you then what makes you think you'll have time for another life? I can do this alone without you stay away the love I give is not there anymore I can do this alone without you I can't hate this life I now hold even if I hate you. I can do this alone without you I don't want my life to change but you made it so. I can do this alone without you so take yourself and go on out the way, I can do this alone without you. you earned your freedom with my anger, I can do this alone without you let another see the changes of a life unfolding. I can do this alone without you You don't want this anyhow so be off with you I can do this alone without you Your not obligated and theres no strings here. I can do this alone without you. Go away you got what you wanted along with my hate. I can do this alone without you Theres nothing more I want from you you couldn't give, I can do this alone without you sleep away go away stay away because.... I can do this alone without you

I feel unhappy I feel so sad I lost the best friend That I ever had he was my someone I loved him so But it's too late now I've let him go I'm going through changes I'm going through changes We shared the eve's We shared each day In love together We found a way But soon the world Had its evil way My heart was blinded Love went astray I'm going through changes I'm going through changes It took so long To realize That I can still hear His last goodbyes Now all my days Are filled with tears Wish I could go back And change these times I'm going through changes I'm going through changes

it hurts to care
it hurts to feel
it hurts to love
it hurts when you don't pay me any attention.
it hurts when you ignore me.
it hurts when you leave things out in the open.
it hurts when you lie.
it hurts when your hurt.
it hurts when your gone away.
it hurts when your silent.
it hurts when your not here.
it hurts when I feel you don't love me.
it hurts when you can't hear this.
it hurts when your so mean.

I miss you and your smile.
I miss your sweetness,
I miss the things you say.
I miss your laugh,
I miss your voice,
I miss your hugs,
I miss your kisses.
I miss your calls,
I miss your words so sweet,
I miss your humor.
I miss your height
I miss your embrace so tight
I miss your caresses.
I miss the way you touch my hair,
I miss the way you kiss me on my forehead.
I miss walking side by side with you,
I miss your I Love you kitten.
I miss the sweet names you call me,
I miss your sillyness,
I miss the way I felt when you where near,
I miss your picking me up.
I miss everything about you,
and most of all I miss you so much it hurts!

speak to me as only you can,
Wake me ,make me take me go away.
Tell me things never heard never told
tell me that you are what you are.
listen when I say that I'am not.
forever is a very long time.
Lie not to me die not for me cry with me.
random,predictablitly always a mystery.
trusting,loving knowing nothing but everthing.
kiss the netherworlds distain when you love .
obtain not disillusion but set rationailty free.
take what you can give nothing to me,
I was loved and loved more,hated never.
I gave but never wanted anything but everything.
evetunally becoming something not yet to be brought to mind.
contradiction in the higest form at it;s lovwest,
I never understood but known so well it became